Dramatics, A Chase Scene, And Here You Can Have It Just Don't Kill Me

[amarissia]

Do excuse the recent dramatics, dears. And if I should up and disappear yet again, please forgive that too. Things are inwardly tumultuous right now, as I've reached a time in which I need to decide what direction my life will be taking, at least for the time being. Until now, it's been difficult, a cornucopia of anxiety/depressive disorders coupled with an autism spectrum disorder will do that, but now I'm facing real change. The kind that could be good eventually, could lead maybe to the kind of life I wanted as a child, before I lost my ability to interact with people in any other way but this.

But change always hurts. Nothing is born without pain. If I thought I was ever stressed before, the pure uncertainty all around me now is...let's just say it's a miracle I haven't taken to hiding in the laundry room. I do a good Boo Radley, but that time is past. I want to break free of the cycle that's held me since I was a little girl and actually do what's best for me, even if I have to do it alone. Again, it's just hard. I don't want to just stay like this. But at the same time, it's always tempting to stay still, where all is familiar, at least. Possibility calls to me from ahead, ghosts pull at me from behind. Is this a good enough excuse for floundering and being such an erratic writer/updater lately? :)

I really don't know what's going to happen. I hope it won't end up including any more time away from you guys. Just typing this, I can feel my stomach start to untie the knot that's been in it for far too long, and after the nice long break I gave them, the Choir is around me again, and they actually seem rather happy to be so. Well, Zack is complaining that I put Loveless on for them again, and Angeal is pretending to agree when he's not even looking at the screen. Sephy is cuddling his favorite living Chocobo plushie, content but thoughtful as he analyzes everything, and Cloud is waving his fingers and pretending to catch imaginary butterflies. Genesis is...ruining the moment. And another pair of pants. Gaia, you'd think he'd at least take off the expensive leather first. If time away from me has made the rest of the Choir more mellow, it's made Genesis even more difficult than before. A short while ago, I summoned my scattered Choir with their homing devices and found Genesis prancing around with something that Zack was, in tantrum-mode, trying to take from him. After a chase that probably looked like some sort of demented ballet, I retrieved the offending object and found that it was the work of my dear Pixeled, a lovely bit of yum she made back in the 'Madness' days:

Lovely, no? Apparently Genesis made copies.

Genesis: "And gave them to my fan club."

And gave them to his - what?

Zack: *whines*
Angeal: *pets*
Amarissia: *has finally updated*

EDIT: Thank you, dears.

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[key-of-ra.livejournal.com]

RL is a bitch, I know. *hugs* You need no more reason for not updating. If you ever need someone to listen while you rant I'm more than happy to do so. Or kill whatever is bothering you in a sneaky Turk way. *grins* Probably via poisoned bakery goods. I suck at baking anything except lemon bars. ^-^ *laughs and offers a large batch of edible goodies*

Update is update, and Aya is happy.
Seriously, though, I've got a shovel and I'm ready to use it. It /and/ Kiisa's PVC pipe.

[amarissia.livejournal.com]

Shovels are marvelous. They have a thousand uses, like duct tape.

*hoards lemon bars* Genesis says you can trade them to our mostly-unseen Turks for low-level classified information, but I think he's learned not to get between me and baked goods. :)

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Really? You like my lemon bars? *grins* Yay! And, of course, we can't forget the Turks too. *offers another batch* Have all you like.
If you want the recipe I can give it to you. *grins*

Shovels are a brilliant invention. As is duct tape. *shows off duct tape bracelet*

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*noms* Ooh, I wonder if this enough to find out what Tseng's real name is...or even if Tseng is a first or last name.

Uh, Seph wants to know how Reno is doing. I don't suppose I need to mention that he's making his evil face. :)

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I'm not telling. ^-^ That's a Turk secret.

Reno is... *looks* ...gone. Shit. *pokes head out of coffee room* Anyone seen Zacky?

Elena: Nope.
Rude: ...
Cissnei: Not today.
Tseng: Why does it matter?

Reno is missing.

All Turks: Shit.

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*wonders if Near can hack into the Turk database again...uh, not again. For the first time. Honest.*

It's not good if Reno is missing, is it? Have you checked all the bars? I'll check the Closet, just in case Sephy got ahold of him...

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No it's not good. *attemps to call Reno's PHS* Meh, no good. It's turned off. If he's not in the closet then I'm betting we'll hear screaming any minute now. *shakes head* Zacky stole my Tonberry again.

[amarissia.livejournal.com]

Why does Zack always have a thing with Tonberrys?

Zack: "They're AWESOME!"
Cloud: "Maybe Silverstream can find Reno."

Has anyone tried yelling at Rude? It won't help find Reno or anything, but shouldn't he keep better track of his partner?

Sephy: "Tseng should keep better track of his Turks."

Sephy, where have you been?

Sephy: "..."

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Rude needs to get Reno a leash. Or at least a tracking chip. *shakes head* Sephy, did you-

*phone rings*
Tseng: We're getting reports of a tonberry on the 20th floor. Aya, do you know anything about this?

Oh, so that's why I can't hear the screaming... Uh, I mean, Zack stole the tonberry again. (I knew he was going to, but really. Who doesn't like to scare the shit out of shinra minions?)

Tseng: Go fix it.

Awwwwww, be right back.

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AGH! KILL IT KILL IT -

Zack; "Tonberry, awesome!" *runs to portal*
Angeal: *puppy-grips, pulls him back* "Stay here."
Zack: "Aw."
Sephy: "Yes, you should go deal with the creature, Amusing Turk."

...he's smiling evilly. It's probably bad that I don't have access to every room in the Closet. Maybe I should send Cloud to check?

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*drags Zacky in by the ear* I'm back! And I've got the culprit!

Zacky-tan: Oh, hey! It's been a while, other-me! Aya tends to answer her messages at work now since the last time we broke her laptop. *sheepish smile*
Tseng: Zack, what have we told you about taking Amaya's tonberry and using it to scare the workers?
Zacky-tan: Don't get caught?

Good puppy! *offers cookie* Now, was Reno with you at all today?

Zacky-tan: No, why?

Damn, I think we need to send in a search-and-rescue team, Amarissia. And Sephy, I want footage. Or, lacking that, photos. KK?

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Zack: *snuggling a sleeping Cloud* "Hey, Other Me! Dude, you get to hang with Amaya's Tonberry? Awesome. Amarissia won't let me have one 'cause she's scared of them."

Still no Reno? This is not good. Sephy!

Sephy: *enters from Closet*

...what are you doing in there?

Sephy: "...paperwork."

I'm gonna have Cloud pout at him when he wakes up, that usually breaks through his resistance.

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Huh, you're doing paperwork. Does said paperwork have red hair and a cocky attitude with a habit of placing hands where they're not welcome?

Zacky-tan: Aw, this one's really cute. And since it's animatronic, it won't attack people. At least, not unless Aya wants it to. The only person Aya did that to was Heidegger's secretary, Kasja.

She deserved it. Bitch nearly killed me when she 'tripped' and sent me flying down the staircase.

Zacky-tan: You know, she kinda reminds me of Scarlet, only brunette and smaller breasts. And she's about a foot shorter, but whatever. *shrugs*

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Sephy: "...possibly."

Stupid...locked...closet...doors...Sephy, if you do have Reno -

Sephy: *looks up, whistles*

Yeah, I'm sending Cloud in.

Cloud: "Okay!" *bounces off*

Ew, a pseudo-Scarlet. Give her hell, Amaya. :)

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*whistles innocently*

Tseng: Aya, what happened to the tonberry?

I sent it back to the apartment. *grins* *whispers* Pseudo-Scarlet is just going to have a rather amusing day before it gets there. Well, amusing for me, that is.

Sephy, I still want pictures.

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It makes me very nervous when you've got that Tonberry wandering around free. *hides behind Angeal*

Sephy: "Pictures? Of what? Anyway, cameras are forbidden here."

Anything, Cloud?

Cloud: "Uh-huh. I came back for my sword. I need it to cut the handcuffs. But I found Reno! YAY! He looks grumpy, though. I don't think he wants to play."

Sephy...

Sephy: *smirks*

Uh, we'll have Reno returned in just a second...

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What do you mean cameras are forbidden? And you know that I want pictures of what you did to Reno.

Don't be nervous. The tonberry won't wander over to your side any time soon. I'm fairly worried about getting it back as so much scrap metal and fabric.

Take your time. I don't want Tseng taking my head off with the stapler because Reno lost a hand.

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It's Marchwarden's fault. She's been working on this naughty fic involving Zack and Angeal and the use of a camera...I gotta nag her to finish it...and Zack got all tantrumy and pouted, so the Choir has forbidden me to use cameras, or even sya the word, although I just did.

Okay, Cloud's in there with bolt-cutters and materia. Ah, here he is. Is Reno okay?

Cloud: "Uh-huh, I think so, but he said a lot of bad words and he doesn't want to play - "

*a streak of red rushes past, disappears through portal*

Sephy: "Come back any time." *smirks*

I'd send him to his office to think about what he did, but, y'know, he's a big scary general. If Tseng wants to yell at him, I can make him stay still, though.

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Reeeeaaaly? Can I have the link?

Reno: Fuck you yo! *leaves*
Zacky-tan: I don't think that Reno appreciated that.
Tseng: I'd rather like to be informed when one of my turks will go missing, Sephiroth. Next time let me know beforehand. Or, lacking that, tell Amaya.

Thanks Cloud. I'm sure Reno appreciates you letting him out. *offers cookies* Don't worry, I didn't bake these.

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Cloud: "YAY, cookies!"

Alas, the camera fic is not available for the public yet. Marchwarden just lets me read it as it progresses because...I don't know why. Maybe my shrieking encourages her. Or she thinks it will keep me from stalking her. Something like that.

Aw, Reno, I'm sorry. I loooove you! Sephy, what do you have to say for yourself?

Sephy: "..."

All because Turks wouldn't fetch a ball for you. GAH.

HEY, Tseng! General Scary here is allowed to kidnap and molest your Turks as long as he informs you about it? Dude, that's cold.

Zack: "It kinda is." *peers through portal* "Sorry, Reno! I'll, uh, try to talk to Seph."

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Tseng: If they get caught then it's their own fault. So long as the situation remains non-life-threatening then it can and will be overlooked.

Uh, yeah. Basically, if Reno can't get out on his own it's his own damn problem. That and we got more done in the office without Reno being stupid and screwing up his paperwork. The silver lining to every cloud, ne?

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Cloud: "Ooh, do I have a silver lining?"
Zack: "Nah, you ARE a silver lining." *pets him*
Sephy: *glares at Tseng*

Ha ha, Tseng set off his Defender of Ukes-alarm. Yes, Reno, if you can hear me, we're calling you an uke again. *throws cookies and plushies at him in apology*

If Reno annoys you, you can send him over here!

Sephy: *smile*

Uh, then again, that might not be a good idea...

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Defender of Ukes? Sephy, do you know how hypocritical that just sounded? *laughs* I'll give Reno your gifts. He already left. *picks up plushies and cookies*

Don't worry Sephy, next time Amarissia really wants a portal opened then I'll bribe you with Reno. *grins*

[amarissia.livejournal.com]

Sephy wouldn't think it's hypocritical because, in his mind, Reno deserves what he gets for not fetching that ball *eyeroll*. Also, he should be grateful for the rare opportunity to be naughty with the great Sephiroth. Seriously, Reno, it's SEPHIROTH! Sephiroth with handcuffs, though...

YAY PORTAL!

Sephy: "I will not be swayed."

We'll see...

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Still, it is fairly hypocritical. Escpecially since it was Kiisa and myself who wouldn't fetch the damn ball. *laughs*

Mmmmm, bondage. Fun. Well, play nice with Reno next time, okay? I don't think he has much fun when you two are together.